Well guys I dont even know if you read these. I have spent the last couple days in alot of thought, I guess its futile to say that under the circumstances it would have been easy to admit defeat. The days have gotten harder, I have noone to reach out to so I suppose these blogs pose as therepeutic. Our town has suffered snow falls in the thompson river area and this weather brings me back to my childhood days when things were simple. I have Lullaby on repeat almost all the time.. Strangly enough I havent memorized the words, they seem to be different everytime I hear it. Not that the words themselves are different but the message is different everytime. You guys rock, It was that moment where a shitty stereo being accidentally kicked, the radio playing that song at that time, I found an old friend in that song.. an old confidence, an old escape..Music. Basically I guess it was a trip into the past to to a strong point in my memories..Strong enough to step off from and begin walking. Thank you for reintroducing that friend to me.